Showing posts with label Holy Week. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Holy Week. Show all posts

Friday, April 18, 2014

On dirty feet and overwhelming love…A sermon for Maundy Thursday



(We have  a few technical difficulties with the mics last night, so just ignore the rough start of the video.  I started this sermon from the chancel.) Sermon Text: John 13:1-17, 31b-35
You probably notice that I am barefoot right now… You are most likely wondering why. You might think I am breaking some kind of dress code for worship or forgetting how I am supposed to act in church. You might be afraid that there is a footwashing ritual awaiting you…  And there is a reason that you are most likely uncomfortable…because it is shockingly vulnerable to bare our feet in public.  They are a part of our body that is not pretty and we would prefer to keep them hidden. And prepare to feel even more uncomfortable, because I am going to invite you to take off your shoes and socks for the remainder of this sermon or of this service, if you feel comfortable doing so. Tonight is the start of the three Holy Days.  This is Maundy Thursday where we have Jesus meeting us where we are, out of pure love and service, despite our dirty feet.  So take off your shoes. 
This story of footwashing is unique to John’s Gospel, but it was not a unique practice in first century Jerusalem. In a time where travel by foot was the norm, it was customary for hosts to offer a chance to wash up before a meal began. The feet of guests would have been dusty and dirty from many hours of walking, and it was an act of hospitality on the part of the host to provide this opportunity to be clean prior to eating.  But it was not the host who did the footwashing, it was the job of some forgettable person without a name, who would do the hard and dirty work and then fade into the background.  That Jesus would kneel down with a basin and a towel and wash the feet of the disciples was bizarre.  It was shocking.  It was offensive.
            I imagine the disciples looking at one another, their eyes meeting over Jesus’ head, eyebrows raised slightly.  Sitting in the sort of awkward silence that happens when it is clear that someone is breaking a well-established social norm.  Perhaps exchanging glances about who should break the tension.  Finally it is Simon Peter, who asks Jesus, “Lord, are you going to wash my feet?”  Jesus answers, “You do not know what I am doing, but later you will understand.”  Peter protests.  Jesus insists.  And Peter, perhaps thinking that this is an opportunity to improve his hygiene after a long and busy week at work in Jerusalem, asks for Jesus to wash his hands and head also. But Jesus corrects him and says this footwashing is not about being clean.  It is an act of service. 
            It would have been shocking enough that Jesus himself kneels down on the floor, ties a towel around his waist, and physically washes the filthy feet of the disciples.  After all, this is the man who just days before triumphantly rode into Jerusalem amid shouts of “Hosanna!” and “Make way for the King!”  He has taken the posture of a servant, he is literally getting his hands dirty.  It’s a nice model for how to be of service to others and is certainly an important consideration for those who would be leaders. But there is something else going on here. 
            The writer of John’s Gospel inserts an editorial comment into this account of Maundy Thursday, writing, “The devil had already put into the heart of Judas to betray him. And during supper, Jesus, knowing that the father had given all things into his hands, and that he had come from God and was going to God, got up from the table, removed his outer robe, and tied a towel around himself.  Then he poured water into a basin and began to wash the disciples’ feet.”  (John 13:2-5a)  Jesus knew that he would be betrayed by one in this close circle of friends, that is Judas Iscariot, yet he knelt down and washed the feet of the man who would betray him and turn him over to those who would kill him. 
            If this is not an act of pure love, I am not sure what is.  Perhaps because I have a finely honed sense of self-preservation, or a general intolerance for being in the presence of those who want to hurt me, if it was up to me I would have thrown Judas right out of that upper room then and there.   But Jesus saw Judas for who he was, the man who would be forever known as the betrayer, and loved him anyway.  He saw how dirty his feet were, and knelt before this man, the one who would betray him, and washed his feet.
            And friends…this is good news.  Because while we would prefer to see ourselves as the rest of the disciples who enjoy a last meal with Jesus and have their feet washed, and manage not to turn Jesus over to the authorities for 30 pieces of silver, we have some Judas in us too.  How often do we put our own needs before those of another?...How often do we betray Christ by refusing to love someone who is different than us?  But Jesus sees us in the midst of all our brokenness and despite our dirty feet.  Jesus meets us in love right where we are, not after we have managed to become holier or cleaner or a better version of ourselves. 
            I asked you to take off your shoes tonight so that you might experience a little bit of what it means to feel vulnerable and seen and loved in the community of Christ’s body.  Many of you have asked throughout this year about the moment when I felt called to ministry.  It was on a perfectly ordinary day eight years ago at the homeless shelter where I was working.  A woman who frequently came to the shelter had told us that she had relapsed after many months of trying to stay sober and stop using cocaine.  This was also a perfectly ordinary thing to happen in this shelter. But then this woman said, “Please help me” and collapsed onto the dirty floor.  While one of my coworkers called for an ambulance, I sat on the floor with this woman, holding her hand and stroking her tangled hair and hot forehead.  And I told her that it was going to be okay, although I had no idea how this would be true.  But I only knew that Jesus shows up in the most impossible situations and loves those who are most unlovable. And I didn’t see this woman as a homeless drug-addicted sex worker, but as a child of God, and that my only command was to love as I have first been loved.  This was ministry and this was the place to where I am called. 
            But this sort of loving of one’s neighbor is really, really hard, and more often than not I do not manage to show this sort of love.  I avert my eyes from those holding signs on street corners or keep walking when someone asks me for spare change. None of us manage to exemplify this sort of love all the time and on our own, which is why we continually need to be reminded that we are loved so deeply by Christ despite our dirty feet.  Our feet that are dirty from walking past those who are in need.  Our feet that are dirty from being in a hurry to have our own desires fulfilled.  Our feet that are dirty from running away from our identity as beloved children of God.
Hear this, people of God…we are loved and we are fed by Christ so that we might love one another as we have first been loved. We hear each week before we commune together, “The Table is ready.  All who hunger and thirst for God’s love are welcome here.”   Tonight as you make your way forward to receive communion, I hope that you will continue to be barefoot and know that you are seen, that you are loved, and in turn, realize that you are freed to love one another.  Amen.


Friday, May 24, 2013

Easter Vigil

The end of the semester got a little crazy so I never finished writing about the triduum at House for All Sinners and Saints.  Easter Vigil is the largest liturgy of the year at HFASS.  (credit to Amy Clifford for all photographs)

The evening starts with the lighting of the new fire in the courtyard.  The congregation processes into the worship space to participate in the Vigil Readings.  There are about 8-10, depending on how many people sign up to participate.








Amy and Ken act out the fiery furnace





















Kate and Alex act out the Genesis creation account
















After the vigil readings, the entire congregation processes outside to walk around the block to chant the names of our saints (those people who have died in the past year) and invite them to come celebrate the resurrection with us, as the thurifer swings the thurible full of incense.














After this solemn procession occurs, the assembly goes back into the courtyard to dig up the alleluia banner that was buried on Transfiguration Sunday.  Then the congregation rushes into the sanctuary singing "Alleluia" over and over again, which has not been spoken during the season of Lent.

The children unbury the Alleluia banner
The worship space is bright and dazzlingly white.  There are Easter lilies everywhere.  The Exultet is sung, the Easter story is read, and the resurrection is proclaimed over and over again.  A traditional part of the Easter Vigil is for baptisms to occur.  This year my friend Sherry asked me to be her baptismal sponsor.  Sherry is in her sixties and had never attended church before.  She thought she was too old be to baptized. She was so nervous about being baptized that I held her hand the entire time.









I present Sherry for baptism














Sherry is baptized! 














After the vigil, there is a huge feast and a dance party that goes into the wee hours of the morning.  Christ has Risen Indeed!  Alleluia!

Chocolate Fountain
(no longer in the baptismal font)

Cristina and me.  I am eating chocolate bacon.

Sunday, April 14, 2013

Good Friday

Credit Amy Clifford 

Good Friday is one of the most devastating liturgies of the liturgical year. We do not have communion because it is the liturgy in which Christ is not present.  Christ was crucified and descended to the dead.  We sang Psalm 22.  The Passion according to John (John 18:1-19:42) was chanted.  The Bidding Prayers (seven petitions) we said.  There was a procession and adoration of the cross in which we laid purple tulips upon the corpus.  The solemn reproaches were sung and the assembly professed through the stations of the cross which were created by members of the congregation.  We departed in silence.

At the end of the liturgy we drove together to a site where there had been a shooting (this year it was where a mother had killed herself and two of her children) and laid the tulips and said a prayer.  The picture below is me laying my tulip.

Credi Amy Clifford

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Maundy Thursday

The Table. (Credit Amy Clifford for photo)
I spent Holy Week with my church community in Denver.  Maundy Thursday is one of my favorite worship services in the liturgical year.  We start the evening individual absolution to all the sins we confessed on Ash Wednesday.  Then while singing, "Take Oh Take Me As I Am" we washed one another's feet and assembled bleach kits for IV drug users.  We do this every year to acknowledge that God meets us right where we are, not where society or anyone else thinks we should be.

Then we moved into feasting on a spread of breads, juices and wines as we offered communion to one another.  My table even had gluten free Irish Soda Bread for me!  We smothered bread with wildflower honey and red pepper hummus and marmalade and raspberry jam. We do this to remember the last meal that Jesus enjoyed with his disciples.  Then, just as in the story of Maundy Thursday, the tone abruptly changes.  I read John 13:21-30 aloud in which Jesus foretells his own betrayal.  We each deposited 30 "pieces of silver" into a large bowl in silence, the only sound being the incessant sound of betrayal, as Judas Iscariot betrayed Jesus for the same amount.

Then the altar and the worship space was stripped as the cantor chanted Psalm 88.  The assembly left in silence.  There is no benediction, because the Triduum does not end until the Great Vigil of Easter is celebrated.

Thursday, April 04, 2013

Isaiah 50:4-9


(A sermon preached to my preaching lab, in which I decide to take a big risk and see what slam poetry will do in a sermon.)

Isaiah 50:4-9

The Lord has given me the tongue of a teacher, that I may know how to sustain the weary with a word.  Morning by morning he wakens—wakens my ear to listen as those who are taught.  The Lord God has opened my ear, and I was not rebellious, I did not turn backward.  I gave my back to those who struck me, and my cheeks to those who pulled out the beard; I did not hide my face from insult and spitting.

The Lord God helps me; therefore I have not been disgraced; therefore I have set my face like flint, and I know that I shall not be put to shame; he who vindicates me is near.  Who will contend with me?  Let us stand up together.  Who are my adversaries?  Let them confront me.  It is the Lord God who helps me; who will declare me guilty?  

The text that we just heard from Isaiah is actually a poem, and the third of four pieces called the Servant Songs, written to God’s people, the Israelites, during their time of exile in Babylon.  These writings are intended to comfort those listening and assure them that God is with them.  In this particular poem, the violent suffering is past, the Israelites are nearing the end of their time in exile, but the constant shaming and persecution is eroding their identity as people of God.  Those hearing these words witnessed the destruction of their temple in Jerusalem, the dwelling place of God on Earth.  They were feeling alone and abandoned by their God.  This text is intended to speak to those imprisoned by their present circumstances, living in the shadow of shame. In other words, they were a people without a God living in a strange land, having undergone suffering and persecution, crying out for any shred of hope from the God that they once knew.


The author of this poem (we are never told his or her identity) is living in a world that has been ripped apart by violence, is displaced from all that they know, and is clinging to a promise of a better day despite all evidence to the contrary as their world is eroded away through constant persecution.  They are at the breaking point where they need a promise given for them and for their community.  They are crying out for a God who knows them and loves them in spite of their shame and fear…A God who will not leave them alone. 



This text was written for a specific people at a specific time, but God also speaks to us through the words of the prophet Isaiah.  We live in a world where we are not safe from violence even when attending a movie or going to elementary school.  We live in lonely apartments or behind white fences, scared to know our neighbors because they might very well be…us.  Our identity as beloved children of God becomes harder and harder to recognize when the world attempts to define us by our jobs or education.  Our income.  Our political affiliations.  Our sexual orientation.  Our ability to “hold it together” when we are dying inside.  We are crying out for meaning and purpose and for something besides the cruel laws of the world to define who we are.   We read this text in the days leading up to Good Friday because it is loaded with Messianic hope.  We have a God who is present with those who suffer, even up to the point of suffering Himself, through death on a cross. 



However, I am going to suggest that playing the Jesus Christ trump card is the easy answer to preaching a text from the Hebrew scriptures and we should look a little deeper into what this text is saying to us as it stands alone.  To facilitate this, I re-wrote this text as slam poetry:

The Lord has given me the voice of a teacher, the calm of my mother, the voice of a preacher…that I may extend a cup of cool water to the thirsty…

Air to those stifled by suffocating obligation and convention…

A word to those who are wearied by the hum of screens and work and the static of a life in which no promise ever breaks through…the shame…the doldrums of day to day exhaustion

Every day, every night, MY God turns me around from myself towards Her…towards Him...to listen again.  She opens my ears…He widens my eyes to listen with seeing and hear with my very soul.

I am opened up, my heart ripped open…painful like air on an open wound, yet, I did not turn away. Did not cringe. Did not run, even though I wanted to. 

This new thing…this thing that God has me doing…
…is terrifying.  This speaking truth to power, reason to unreason, good in the midst of so much shit…there is no way that I would be doing this on my own. 

I offer myself again and again for humiliation.  I state boldly what I am called to do before those who would judge me.  I stand before an angry jury…a boardroom of somber suits…testifying to the truth. 

I put myself out there to be exposed…to be scalded and scolded and saddened…again and again.  I did not hide in my closet or behind my accomplishments or convictions. 



My God is with me…disheveled and dishonored as I am…cast about the world like a ship adrift. I am honorable in her sight.   Therefore my gaze is steady.  My past shame has no power over me.  I am justified…made right…made whole…if only in her sight. 

I am not alone…though I walk in shadow…I am not dead.  My God stands together with me in the mud of the present.  I am not unjustly convicted by this world…I am justified by MY God.



God is not telling us to endure present suffering in order that we might be justified one day.  God is not making suffering some virtuous thing that will bring us closer to Him or Her.  God is not telling us that we are capable of bearing suffering alone or choosing to do anything different to better our situation.  NO!  The message here is that God endures with all of us.  We hear such promises as: “The Lord gives me all that I need”, “the Lord helps me”, “He who vindicates me is near”, “Let us stand up together”.  This is a God who promises to endure with us.  A God who defines us in spite of what our present circumstances or the world would say about us.  This is the Gospel of the Lord.