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As I write this post I am just a few short weeks away from
finishing my internship at First Lutheran Church, in St Peter, MN. I am the
first intern for this congregation. When the congregation began discerning the
possibility of having an intern long before my arrival, they compiled a profile
that said, “We believe that our conviction of welcome and designation as a
Reconciling in Christ congregation makes us makes us an ideal site for an LGBTQ
intern.” My interview went very well,
and as I walked home, I thought, “I have found my internship site.” On that very same day, Pastor Alan stated to
the congregational council, “I have found our intern.”
One of my fears prior to internship was that I would be
known only as “the gay pastor.” I was
afraid that all of my work and my pastoral formation would be filtered through
that part of my identity. In a world
that so often forces LGBTQ people to apologize for who they are, before they
can even begin to live into their vocation, I have seen, heard, and experienced
something exciting at First Lutheran Church.
This congregation’s convictions about hospitality and welcome are real,
and they are living out the Gospel. In this place, I am Pastor Amy first, and a
gay pastor second.
Like most LGBTQ people I have struggled with belonging. Belonging in our families, churches,
communities, and workplaces. The church is a particularly painful place for
many of us. In representing my congregation as a Reconciling in Christ site at
the Southwest Minnesota Synod Assembly, I had the opportunity to talk with many
people about what it means to be a safe place of welcome for all people. As
many lamented that their congregations might never openly welcome LGBTQ folks,
and tears were shared for family members and friends who left these
congregations, I was able to share some hope that there is a new day dawning in
the church.
Part of my sense of
call is to unceasingly proclaim to all the beautiful, broken, and beloved
people of God who feel pushed aside by our culture or the church itself, “You
already belong. You may feel like you
are on the margins, but you are part of the Body of Christ.” My call is also to baptize and serve Holy
Communion to equip this Body for their own work for justice, peace, and mercy
in the world.
My experience as an intern this year, as well as my
participation in Proclaim, has given me the confidence to live boldly into my
calling to ministry. I no longer
apologize for being who God created me to be, but instead give thanks that I am
who I am, that I have this call and have this sacred task before me.
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